if it wasnt financially stupid to move out right now, id be gone. i would genuenly be gone, id be out of this house. i dont want to be here anymore. i want to move in with my friend who has offered me a place, or move in with someone else i know who might be down.

i cant man, my parents aren’t bad people but they dont understand me

yeah yeah wow so edgy UGH SO MISUNDERSTOOD

they really dont though

they dont understand why i wont follow a religion, they dont understand why i dont want kids, they dont understand me as a person and i dont think they ever will. its gotten to a point where i think im just gonna do literally exactly what they want when it comes to arguments and shit

season 5 episode 21 of malcom in the middle, reece joins the army. he turns himself around from being the worst soldier to the best by saying all he did was he turned his brain off and did exactly what was asked

im going to turn my brain off, otherwise im going to kill myself. i guess you can call that turning your brain off as well. i havent thought of it much, but more recently i have. its a bit scary.

i keep to msyelf. i can say with full confidence i have 4 people in my life who i trust with everything. none of them are my family. not extended family, not immediate family, none of those 4 people are my family.