once again my mind is being reminded of that retarded haunted house and the female obsession of getting fucked by a monster. good thing i lived through half of that and got to see it firsthand.

now can smoeone explain to me if it’s possible to see what life would look like after i disappear. like look if push comes to shove i dont know what i’d do. but i care too much about other people so its a small chance. i hate thinking about this bro.

im trying to get into photography. maybe i might enjoy it maybe not, i dont know yet.

i miss my old friends, i wish i never started that job. i wouldn’t have had any of that drama, things would be normal. i could talk to my friends again and everything would be fine. i probably wouldn’t have started smoking weed if i didnt take that job thats funny. i didn’t even do anything wrong i still qeustion what went wrong. and what went wrong with me, why do i feel so worthless. i feel like i cant relate to anybody and i feel like i don’t exist in anybody elses life. i truly don’t believe i cross anybody’s mind.